Carpe Diem

“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.” - Sylvia Path

That pretty much sums up my sentiments about my life. I feel that there's always no enough time to do and finish all things I want to accomplish. That I am horribly limited. I have my own bucket list, or as what I like to call it, 100 things to do before I die.. (though it's still half-finished)  and I'm hoping that little by little, I shall be able to cross out some things off my list which involves lots of traveling :) such as to bike around the Eiffel Tower, ride a gondola in Italy, visit Machu Picchu. Okay, before I go off topic and start blabbing about my list.. I feel that I can never fulfill all those places I want to go to just like how I can never read all the books I've been eyeing on and adding to my book list right now. The skills I want to learn and develop, the sports I want to try, the lives I want to experience. Which I tell you could go on forever, jk, maybe a fortnight. So, the reason behind that is exactly what's written above.


I WANT TO LIVE AND FEEL ALL THE SHADES, TONES AND VARIATIONS OF MENTAL AND PHYSICAL EXPERIENCE POSSIBLE IN LIFE.  Ever since I've encountered this quote, I memorized this line because I feel that they're the perfect words to sum up my being (no, not really. perhaps just one part of me).. and it is also the exact comeback I want to say whenever people around me tells me that I can never make up my mind. Usually, we are designated to only one lifestyle and career in life that we'll master and love, but I can't find that one thing because of those bolded letters over there. I don't want to label that as being indecisive or a person with no direction in life, I prefer the term open minded. A person who wants variation and diversity. yes, I want change. Change is the one thing here that's constant and I like changes, it gives variations and divergence to life.. as long as they're changes for the better. 


 I just think that life is short even though it seems not in the meantime. Too short to manage all the things in my bucket list, too short to live and feel all the shades possible in life. And lastly, on a lighter tone, short to read all the books I want! But of course it won't be so short if one actually gets up, gets it done and Carpe Diem.

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